It’s DAY 8 of level 1 of my 30 day shred and I can proudly say I’m doing muchhhh better on those exercises! So happy and I cannot wait to get to level 2! I’m already feeling better and my legs and butt and arms no longer hurt from the workout like they had on my first three days! And I also think that my muscles are toning up because I mean, my thighs feel toned..and also a tiny bit on my flabs…lol.
Yay!
1. 20-30 minutes on stationary bike (15-25mph)
2. 30 day shred (2 times a day; depending whether I’m busy or not)
3. Will start yoga meltdown when reaching Level 2.
Well I’ve been trying to lose weight since I was 15. And I guess they care in a way… but I don’t know.
I really want to lose this weight because I want to look good before heading off to New York. Start fresh kinda thing. I want to be able to look good wearing clothes on the streets of NYC. And yes I’m doing it for myself obviously.
And….maybe to show off to my ex a little bit when we meet up that I’m doing really well……..just a thought…
Me not losing inches or whatever after these 30 days and me gaining fat/weight after this.
And,
My boobs getting smaller. I don’t want my already small/average(?) boobs to be smaller…
Lol.
Is this what ‘thinsperation’ means? Like and inspiration/goal body or weight or whatever for me to be motivated to be thin? If yes, for now I really want my body to at least look like that, I really like her tummy area.
*Credits to the girl whom I don’t know..but I’m making her my motivator/inspiration. :)
158 cm / 5’2 ft
No, but it’s not changing any soon, I’m older so it probably stopped changing, so whatever I don’t care. That’s what high heels are for lol.
Height: 158 cm / 5’2 ft
CW: 61 kg (GW: 54kg)
Arm: 32 cm
Upper Waist: 79 cm
Lower Waist: 82 cm
Hips: 88 cm
Butt: 97 cm
Thighs: 58 cm
You push me
I don’t have the strength to
Resist or control you
Take me down, take me down
You hurt me
But do I deserve this?
You make me so nervous
Calm me down, calm me down
Wake you up
In the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I’m never gonna leave this bed, oh
So come here
And never leave this place
Perfection of your face
Slows me down, slows me down
So fall down
I need you to trust me
Go easy, don’t rush me
Help me out, why don’t you help me out?
Wake you up
In the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I’m never gonna leave this bed, oh
So you say “Go, it isn’t working”
And I say “No, it isn’t perfect”
So I stay instead
I’m never gonna leave this bed
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
I’d give it all away just to get you back
And fake it, fake it all
Take what I can get
Knockin’ so loud
Can you hear me yet
Try to stay awake but you can’t forget
Wake you up
In the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I’m never gonna leave this bed, oh
You say “Go, it isn’t working”
And I say “No, it isn’t perfect”
So I stay instead
I’m never gonna leave this bed, ooh
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
Yeah, I, I know it’s hard to remember
The people we used to be
It’s even harder to picture
That you’re not here next to me
You say it’s too late to make it
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down
I’m at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone
Baby it’s all wrong, where are the plans we made for two?
If happy ever after did exist
I would still be holding you like this
All those fairytales are full of sh*t
One more stupid love song I’ll be sick
You turned your back on tomorrow
Cause you forgot yesterday
I gave you my love to borrow
But just gave it away
You can’t expect me to be fine
I don’t expect you to care
I know I’ve said it before
But all of our bridges burned down
I’ve wasted my nights
You turned out the lights
Now I’m paralyzed
Still stuck in that time when we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise
It’s been exactly a year since that day that we spent together at the beach and at my house. I remembered that day clearly like it was only yesterday. We were so happy and ‘in love’ a year back. All the words you told me the song Never Gonna Leave Bed by Maroon 5 playing and everything. How ironic; Listening to Payphone also by Maroon 5 and I remembered all these things. The whole lyrics apply! “where have the time’s gone baby its all wrong where are the plans we made for two.” i guess, “even the sun sets in paradise” so I have no reason to wonder why it didn’t work out. why it changed.
You told me you were never going to leave me and that you loved me. You told me we were in love. But to think about it you never actually told me ‘you were falling for me’. But I don’t know. You told me that there’s no one like me that you could never find someone like me and that there’s no one else for him. You said “nanah, i heart you” then your famous quote “erection is the indicator of love”. Here I am lying on my bed where these was all said, only this time you’re not here cuddling with me, wrapping your arm tightly around me and putting your head at the crook of my neck. Said you loved the smell of my hair.
Me and you had our shells that you searched for the whole entire time we were there because you said we should get something memorable to remember the day, I still have mine in my box. it has ‘S’ on it while yours has the letter ‘H’ engraved. The last time you said you’re gonna keep it cuz of the good memories. Don’t know about now though. We were playing ‘pretend parents’ to my little sister you guarding her from the waves and everything. Then that night in my bed we just laid in my bed together with the nice silence. The whole car ride you were putting your hand on my thigh as if your just securing me not trying to do anything.
God I missed those days. Do you think you remembered today?
I guess I don’t love you anymore and memories could just be clouding my head right now and bring back the feeling. I miss you though. But I think I’m over you. I am. I just miss my good friend. I still cannot get the idea of ex lovers being strangers even after being through something together. Oh well.
QUOTES:
Better a cruel truth than a comfortable delusion. ~ Edward Abbey
Once you choose hope, anything’s possible. ~ Christopher Reeve
New York is notorious for their competitiveness ~ Unknown
I just want sleep in the city that never sleeps
i was completely floured i knew i want to come to nyc cuz its inspiring to hear about every1 who lived there and played there i was like i gotta go there try that. its a neck of the art and culture
“Do it like a belly dancer”
TO DO:
#1 Have a manhattan in manhattan
#2 Mcqueen at the MET
#3 New Years in Times Square
#4 moma, met, guggenheim, the whitney, new museum, brooklyn museum
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#5 musical window shopping
#6 times square subway
#7 walk around empire state building & central park
#8 FLEMINGTON ave (factory outlet in nj)
#9 5 pointz museum guggenheim
#10 madame tussauds
#11 cheesecake, bagel, pizza, pretzel, pastramififth ave asks etc dash
#12 umbrella, sunglasses
#13 canal street + century 21
#14 coney island imax broadway grand central silver cup, rockefellar
Stuff:
* So move along, move along. REMEMBER THE BET. *
* episode 10 90210songtrack *
ART SHIT
anne stahl, Emily hines, edgar muller,
frenk gehry architecture movement - distortion inspiration
benjamin moore art shop - 6th/7th 14thst
